Everytime I go there I read about Mystic and Mr Mystic and my heart shreds.
I laid in bed lastnight thinking about her and him and praying. And I cried myself to sleep thinking how easily we lose that which we love.
I think/hope Rob and I have that kind of relationship and I can't imagine never hearing his voice, or being able to reach across the bed with a foot to touch his and it broke my heart for her.
I know that alot say that everything happens for a reason, but when things like this occur it's hard to believe those people.
I went floating yesterday, just me and a friend. I found some flowers that I wound together and sent them floating downstream with a prayer for Mr Mystic/John. I hope someone heard it.
I still don't understand how bonds are formed with people I've never met and most who I'll never meet, but know that I think of all of you and most on OT as true friends. And I truly hope Mystic does find comfort on OT because she is loved.
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I would love to do something tangible for her, but other than a card I'm at a loss. Any suggestions?
Tummy, I know what you mean. It's a strange sensation that one can become so saddened over the death of a person we really don't "know." Except, that we do.
Mystic is finding great comfort in OT. I chatted with her in the bar both Saturday night and Sunday night and she said that she definitely feels the great amount of love from her friends there.
As for something tangible - I think there will be something we can do for her. I talked with her a little bit about it and dragonflies did, too. I think she's still trying to determine what she needs most right now, so hang tight.
If you're able, she has been in the bar at night, because night time is the hardest right now, so if there are some friends there, I know she'd appreciate the company.
Tummy, have I told you lately how much your friendship means to me? Not just because of this post, but because of our interactions lately. I feel a kinship with you.
You've described the way I feel about my DH. I worry that I may be widowed. I try not to dwell on it. I love DH so much, and he is the best friend I've ever had. I do not want to live life without him.
So, I know what you are talking about. I also know that even though I've met the Mystics, I feel so much like I would if they were neighbors and friends.
Last night I imagined Mystic finding comfort in her bed hugging her dogs and cats. I imagine the animals are grieving, too, at the loss of their "father" and friend.
Anyway, thanks for sharing your thoughts. (((Hugs))) and *smooches*
What I meant to say, is even though I've have met the Mystics only once, and didn't have a lot of time to interact with them at the Peep meet in Niagara - I feel like they are old friends.
Fro it was good chatting with you in the bar lastnight, thanks for the hint :)
and Silvergirl...Ditto! and thank you for saying it outloud :) and...I knew what you meant :)
Breezy and I had this conversation. Talking about why we felt so so affected by John's passing.
I think that sometimes we forget that in a strange way, those of us on OT are family. Some of whom we have never meet nor will ever meet but OT is different than most places on the internet. There are no words for what OT is but it IS different. And we ARE family. Even those who I don't care for, are family. So when one who we like takes such a hit in life, we feel it with her. His death for many reasons will not be in vain and if nothing else it has caused an entire community to respect and appreciate what they have and who they have in their lives. For that, I thank John for giving me that gift. The gift of appreciation.
Jason and I talked to them quite a bit in Seattle. I remember fondly how excited Mystic was to give John his anniversary present and how pleased he was by it. It was very sweet. I cried over his passing...I can't imagine how hard it is for her right now.
You are a very descriptive, feeling writer. You have captured what I too feel.
Sadly I just feel lately like life is too fleeting. We just learned a cousin who is a young fit father of 2 young boys was diagnosed with MS. He is expected to deterioate quickly. All at the age of 34.
True everything you said Bravie. and zombs I'll say a prayer for your cousin and his family.
I looked at Mystic's OT condolence thread & almost logged in to add my condolences there but I don't really feel like part of that community anymore - so I didn't. Probably should have...
Wonderful tribute with the flowers, tummy.
I suck at death. It took me three days to get up the courage to call mystic. The answering machine picked up, so I blabered for a bit. I need to call her back.
I was wondering if she'll decide to do something in John's name with the zoo or such. I'd love to contribute to something.
Kim,
She hasn't been at home, she's staying with her BIL right now, so that's why you haven't caught her.
She is planning on spending her first night back at home tonight. She's a nervous about it.
As for contributions, she's going to post John's obituary on OT. It will have information on donations.
It's okay to suck at death. No one is "good" at it and no one expects you to be.
All of you have expressed so eloquently what I've been thinking. Mystic is in my thoughts and prayers. I'd also like to do something for her, so I'm looking forward to seeing what will be posted.
It was a good turn out in chat lastnight.
Mystic is one strong lady. There's a thread of steel running thru that one.
Aww Tummy,
I haven't been online much lately cause I'm getting kids to their respective camps, etc. but your words say it all to me. This summer has been tough. First we went through the loss of a sweet girl my dd's age- we all knew and the family. I still read the mom's blog and it makes me cry but I know she needs that. Then Mystics loss. I can't even imagine the loss she feels right now and I so appreciate all you've done in helping us help her. What I've learned from all of this is to show and tell my loved ones they are loved. Again, thanks Tummy for helping us all get through this time. {{hugs}}
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